Gothenburg day by day

Almost 6 weeks now since it's snowing. Winter is still here in Gothenburg, and todays weather is so cold and shows minus 10 degree. We went for outing this afternoon and the street was so slippery. I used my winter shoes but still you need to walked carefully and slowly. Having salt in

the road does'nt help because it's over 6 minus .
We just drive to the nearby ocean where my husband and I used to fishing during summer. Western Gothenburg has alot to offer even during winter season.




This fishing boat get stuck in ice reminds me of something "Titanic"film. Think that it does a bid work of the owner. Fisherman here earns better than thinking of normal fisherman life in some Asian country.They have a good source of materials and fishing needs. Here being a fisherman is a good occupation.

I find myself special,happy that have the opportunity and experienced the winter life. Talking my past life before that could only see these in film. The ocean form into ice and has broken off and floating in an open water so beautiful!

I must admit that I like summer better but I was sorry for what I've thought. Every season here is beautiful.

The Old memory

A band of time and I do relaxing at home the whole weekend. I did listening some Visayans song in "You tube" and I was amazed with "Yoyoy"Villame's song lyrics. I never know that he did passed away,sad to all the "Bisaya" because he was a legend. Lot of old memories that come into my mind today. I laughed and I even dance with his music.

Aside from "Yoyoy" Max Surban is also a legend they have made a good "bisaya"music together. I love them both specially their "Dagohoy Rock Lapu-lapu Boogie. The two of them are both good entertainer. Their music helps the Cebuano's understand the culture and improved their social life. Thanks to their music I have a good feeling today.

Music is really a good therapy.

Egg return

Nervous and excitement was what I had feel the whole day. Some of my friend told me not to think about things and of course "egg". I tried to make myself busy for other things,did relax but I could hear my heart pounding.

Today is the beginning of my life journey. The struggle to be a mom was the big step that I've done in my life. My longing for a child helps me a lot and give me determination to fight. Today is the big day hour 14.45 time that my fertilized egg put in.

My husband was with me today we would like to experience both the big day of our life. Out of 5 eggs taken out last Monday only 2 was good condition. The rest was not totally 100 percent ready.

Egg was realy sensitive that even with perfume. Wow!I cannot imagine that I haave my fertilized egg with me now. 15 day after I need to check if I am pregnant(which I am praying that I will be).Otherwise I have my 1 egg left incase I have miscarriage.

The simple me

The sun is shining this time.I came out and play a little bit and enjoy the day.Cold and I am freezing but it doesn't matter. The day is wonderful today.




Sun bathing is possible but you don't need to used "bikini" hhhheeheh. Simple being me

in the jungle of pain

I cannot described the ache I have experienced today. Our big day today both myself and my hubby. I got some pain reliever before the egg was taken,but I was dizzy. Everything was not easy the idea to becoming a mom.

The process demands a great understanding for both partner which thanks I never encounter some hindrances from my husband. But the medicine,the injection demands my whole body resistance. This pain that I felt today was the worst that I have in my life.

I was totally tired out with the pain that which I am in the middle of the jungle of nowhere. At home as doctors advice that I need to rest(but I cannot). I felt a sharp abdominal pain that hurts when I walked.

Thanks to my hubby again that take care of me the whole day and night. I hope everything will be fine tomorrow. On Wednesday is my another big day.

view from country side

Almost 2 months now and snow remains in entire Sweden. I am on my vacation from my work for 4 days for my IVF treatment. Tomorrow is my big day time to take out my egg ready for artificial fertilization. Therefore I ask my husband if we could have some ride outside the city.

I like being in the countryside they have a lovely view. Just then we was in the small town and it's all quite. No one child playing around and we've not even saw people outside the house. Horses and cars the only thing we could find.

That's life here during winter,not every one wanted to play outside. I was thinking that maybe each of their children was tired of playing the snow and ice scating.

While man husband rechecking his map I go out in the car and enjoyed the whole view. What a fantastic view they have here every where is nice. Although the grass was fully covered of snow but it was totally wonderful.

We continued to the area where the lake are deep freezing. As you can see the picture,exactly where I stand(the freezing lake).

My husband used to have fishing here during summer together with his friends. We meet one person just a few hours ago spending his free time in ice scating here.

I remember one thing before "Tabing Ilog"teenagers drama program from channel 3(ABSCBN).The area where they held their film was like this area.

My hubby told me that this is not an ordenary picnic area where you can set and enjoy.They used these as open boat one time while they go fishing. Families that living in the area built these for their leisure time.Smart!

Without return

How many times I need to remind myself to check my timetable. The other day I come at work 1 hour early than my schedule. It was not the first time happened but it's better to come early than being late. I sat 30minutes in the conference room and spend the time by reading some Swedish book.

One thing I like on the labour market here was their time plexible and some good side for the employees. Dining room for personnel as well with the resting place with massage chair to offer. We are not aloud to work more than 8 hours a day. But of course the rules have exemption it depends on the department situation with the approval with the manager.

I am quite satisfied with all the rules here because we used to work for equality. Many immigrants that come from Asia are quite popular in the labour market. Like those from Thailand,Vietnam,Philippines,Cambodia.

I had read few pages of the book and thinking to stop and read newspaper instead. A sad situation and another disaster that happened this year again. Year 2009 have been not a good year for us that we tried to overcome until these.

"Haiti's Earthquake Catastrophe "Month of January 2010 again the beginning of the year. Sad news front page in every newspaper here and even in the TV. How could we people understand these. I did collect and read some information of what did happened. The whole Haiti was totally destroyed.

The world is not safe as I could imagine. We don't know what would be happen to us in the future. Maybe we should start to think that every building we build should be totally strong. No it's not easy to predict what will happen. Natural catastrophe is one of the big problem which human have no control.

It gives negative effect of the people without return. Lets pray for the "Haiti"people.

View for the day

This is where I live 3rd floor left side. It takes 6 minutes walked from condominium to the tram station. Easier for me specially during summer. I don't need to take a long walk to the station when I have my friends meeting.






All of the transport here are en ticket-vending machine. A big difference in my country that need someone to collect the passengers fare. No free ride because the inspector will not give you a chance. If they caught you the penalty is 10 times of what the ticket cost.

All of the tram are owned by Gothenburg region, this is all I know sorry for the rest.

I was totally alone while waiting the tram to the City. You cannot heard that someone is shouting or honk from the car. So quite that makes me scared sometimes, because here people have too much freedom. Young adults here shows no respect with others that's why I don't like be alone.

After my important matters I looked around in the city. It's been long time since I was here last time. I work from the other side of the town and no time to come here and do shopping.

I felt more cold and tired after a few hours window shopping. I tried not to spend too much this month because I need to save and besides I have everything I need at home.

While waiting my husband to pick me up I continued looking outside the street. The water from the canal was still deep frozen.

Tourist boat passing here during summer in order to see the whole view of the city.

feel "better"after crying

Early morning,another day and I feel different of my condition. I cannot explain seems that I lose my temper. Ohh no I told myself to awake from the nightmare situation. But it's not easy to control my vulnerable feeling so I cried while I did my "rosary". It helps! after I feel better my strange ideas and sensitivity was gone.

I phoned my husband and told him everything and he just told me. You have in the middle of your "hormone treatment" relax don't let yourself to carry away. Ohh I know but woman's world is not so easy.



Right after my own "drama" I take my synarela(spray 1 dose morning). I did change my mobile (alarm) to hour 19.00 for my both "injection" and 2ND dosage of my spray.

(my hormone injection) my doctor prescribed 225unit(1-every evening).

out of control

The clock is ticking, I have my ultrasound this thursday morning hour 900. Everything is fine with me,but quite tired after work. Finally 1 day to go and I have my 2 weeks vacation.

Iam so hungry when I arrived home hour 22.00 which I surprised myself. I've never felt so hungry before in this late evening. I was so thankful that my hubby did prepared and cooked my favorite food.

I am out of control !I was thingking if it is one of the side effect of my hormone treatment. Hope it will not so worse as I imagine about.

Banana snack

I can't imagine again to taste my favorite "bananaque". I tried to find out here almost in every Asian market but this kind of banana is not exist. It's been hard sometimes thinking that if you wish something to eat but you cannot buy it in the market. Well this is not Philippine so is it, I am thinking to improvise and used another kind of banana and then "barbeque".

Deep fried or make it barbeque it does'nt matter still taste delicious. This is so popular in Philippine that every family have it as daily snack. By using brown sugar it helps to make it more brown and crispy.

Have it in afternoon snack with cup of tea.

it's about time

Nothing change my day is as usual. My husband and I are both day off this weekend. We're planning not to do something special today. We ate breakfast late in the morning because we woke up late. Think if I could have this tempo every day,how nice it maybe.

Right after eating our breakfast, we did some grocery in Asian store, the supermarket that I never been before. I was surprised when I saw things from Philippines. It made me smiled thinking that not all Asian store here sell Filipino goods. I am just a little child go around and checking things.

I bought all the things I wanted and being satisfied even in a short moment.

The simple words.

Well I would say that I survived from the worse side effects!. I feel no appetite sometimes but I try my best to have something to eat.I continued my spray and then the other day I started my injection. All of them are for reducing my hormone. Needles is just every where,this is part of my daily lifestyle.

I dream to have a child so this it!This coming Monday I need to visit my doctor for blood test.I know I am on the right way. Hopefully this last week of January come the positive result.

I felt content of my health situation because on the credit side my co workers are so caring. I have everything I need family, and friends support. Saying thank you to them is not enough.

Thai cooking

I am not so good in the kitchen thanks God that my husband cooked better than me. I like Swedish food and no problem with potato instead of rice. I meet different nationality of people here,most of them are Thai. Mm they are really good in terms of cooking food. I used to phoned them and asked if we can meet and cooked food together.

Thai food is quite similar to Filipino food they used to have every meal. Thai food have stronger taste because of the chili,and curry.Hmmm delicious!




my (Thai) friend called this recipe(Thai green curry) I did learned it from her.







I used chicken,green curry,bamboo shoot and some other vegetables.
My husband and I love the taste.

save SAAB

Swedish car automobile(SAAB) is soon gone. I felt sorry for SAAB workers who have been in the company in many many years. Hard and indescribable feeling that I have right now. Swedish government did their best just to help to those who lose one's job. But the economy status as of today in Sweden is not good.



A sad story that SAAB car will disappear in the market. Sweden is known of VOLVO car,SAAB, electrolux and even Ericsson's mobile phone.

Photo's last December

December was just like yesterday. January month is not so much to offer aside from it's getting lighter at hour 1600. Here I am playing snow on the night.



Ready to ride with my neighbors bike.. getting stuck in snow help!





Freezing!but making snow balls was cool and fun




I need a ride.

All Pinoy!

I am deeply impress of myself today. In spite for my tough day at work but still I have the energy to take a walk going home. This time it takes almost 1 hour for me because the road is not so safe to go due of snow. It's a little bit slippery so I take easy and careful not to have accident.

At home and alone for this usual time, I did invited myself to my mini "Philippines world". My "WOW" karaoke that I bought 2 years ago in Cebu City.





I used to have karaoke write after work sometimes. It helps me a lot when I'm longing for home . One thing good for "WOW" karaoke is their Philippine beautiful spots background. It entertained me and help me to forget that I am far away from home.





While singing I take a look time to time from the different views. How beautiful my country is but unfortunately it's been abused by some politicians with their own interest.






Right up in our side table in living room their I hang out my "Philippine" made. It's our wedding gift from my cousin.








This painting is I am proud about. Made of clothe "velvet" i think. This is the Pagsanjan falls.











The beautiful "Mayon"volcano before the eruption. The village people have a peaceful living before compared from the present.

to sacrifice

Day by day I learned different things included from my mistakes. I am quite aware of myself that my experienced being independent daughter help me too much to survive here abroad. Patience and have courage,have heart is much important at all. You cannot prove yourself for one thing without doing it first.

Life is hard and not easy to handle that's why we need God. I definitely admit that without "Him" everything is impossible. One thing I can share to everybody is show and dare to gamble your life. Leave your old life and try to renew it with something positive.

Good things will not coming unto you, unless you will not find a way unto it. I could see myself 31 years back when my mother died. It's hard because as a growing child motherly advice is much important speciality if you're a girl. I keep on thinking until now that my family have been in a long journey.

Small and big problems we've been passing through year by year. Thank you God by making my families dream made it come through.

Synarela side effect!

Day 9 since I started my nose spray and now I noticed that acne have coming out in my face. Ohhh! i hate it but to have acne is one of side effect of my treatment.

I also noticed that I feel sweaty under my arm and dizzy sometimes. All of these are side effect! and give me little worries. I need to accept and learn to ignore it. It's annoying of course but I am hoping for positive result for this month.

I am glad that we have "mobile telephone" today that reminds me every 6 hours. Mobile's alarm clock helps me a lot otherwise I forget to take my medication. Thanks to the mobile manufacturer!

The untitled

One of my brother in Philippine have a tough situation since the day one of January 2010. He hit 5 years old when he reversed the car without intention. It's totally accident!and it's scary for his part and me too. Text and phone calls that I received in the midnight hour(Swedish time). I have a hard time this weekend thinking for the situation we're facing right now.

As sister I consoled my brother and his family. I am proud of my family because they are simple and contented of what they have. As a Filipino family we are strong and problem is always our "cycle"that we used to solve hand in hand. This what "Filipino family" is known and remarkable about.

Thanks "GOD" that the boy have only normal injuries. Hospital bills did my brother worried and I did some rescue. It's not dangerous at all but everything turn into chaos,because of bad gossip. Good person find oneself in trouble is irrational situation that makes me hard to accept. How could we stop! gossiping people.

The world is not end and I know that bad things will pass away. I am proud that I have a strong family relation ´both here and in Philippines. Through them every situation is easier for me to handle.

My place under the sun

Winter weather could feel me tired and depressed. How I miss summer,and dreaming that I am in the warm country right now. Although I like snow but 14 minus is hmmm not forward. Layer to layer clothe that I am wearing every time I go out. It makes me crazy because it takes time to get in dress.

I really missed my place under the sun.

My house in San Remigio Cebu Philippine

serve as our summer vacation center..relaxing and long outside the City(located in province).

New technology give us stress.

The world of new technology thanks!we have possible access of electronics information. Everything is impossible now this days(of course not counted to uncivilised area). Telephone and other electronics companies always find their ways to invent an amusing gadget.

Yes! they provide us something that we could enjoy off. But for the other side it gives us stress. Like the situation happened to me and my husband before Christmas. We decided to change our thick TV into the latest model flat -screen LCD TV. My husband twin brother have an electronics shop their we bought our new "toy". Even though I have a little knowledge about electronics but it was totally confused. It's not about 1 model that we're talking but many,from the old till the latest.

The both of us took few hours before we did the final decision for what model is the best. Of course with the help of the expert(my brother in law) much easier for us to understand. We have no hurry to have such new thing at home. But since my husband and I love to stay at home and watching TV is one of our hobby. It's our excused why we was thinking about it.

Wide screen gives more effect and more lively when watching some favorite TV program. I am not a materialistic person not either my husband. We only like to enjoy our life since it's part of our relaxation. We're living in the stress world so we need to balance our life standard.

Parental guidance

The responsibility as a parents is big. As parents it is not enough to send your child to school. But you also need to teach them some important values. To have a poor family is not the hindrance to raise the children in good manner and respect. Best things begins at home and the environment in which child grow up does matter.

Show your love to your children,hug them and kiss them. Tell them that you always love them, if they got mistakes don't spank them. Instead talk to them and start to explain why they don't need to do it again. In that way your molding them to be a better person. Don't forget that child have their own world,the world of fantasy and that's parents play an important part of their life.

How about if parents itself have bad childhood background? well sometimes it could affect their family situation. But the magic is each parents hands,it's up to you if you will continue that pattern of life. Remember that you are not alone on this world. God give us talent, use it and ignore the past.

Don't forget that your child is our future. They reserve the right love and care from you as parent. Child have a plenty of things to learn. Be patient and be proud, build a strong home because if the foundation is week every things goes apart. I know it's hard and not easy being parent. Good luck!

stay home

I have a wonderful day even though the weather is not really good. I am stay at home wife for this weekend. Wonderful and relieving that I am out of stress . Our planned London trip was concelled since we're planning it by summer instead.

I woke up almost hour 1200,but I get up from bed between hour 8.00 to 9.00. I don't like to miss my medication for 1 day. My husband checked the temperature outside and it was still minus degree(-8).

Watching tv is what we've doing for the whole day.I like this American tv program "The Biggest Loser" the program is so inspiring.Have a nice weekend every one.

Swedish is free from swine flu!

It's a good news for every body here in Sweden that the pandemic swine flu has stopped. Thank you for the massive vaccine and the awareness of correct hygiene in hospitals and private sector. More than half of the total population here was vaccinated. Good job every one!

Saturday,third day of my nose spray(treatment for my IVF). This time I now feel the small changes. While writing this blog I have been feeling thirsty almost every minute. I know this is one of the side effect and weww so tough.

Overall picture of me now is fine and of course an exciting for everything. I am off 3 days from work beginning today so I just take it easy at home.

Tips for every one wash your hands before and after eating specially after visiting the toilet. Through this your helping to stop the spreading of bad bacteria in your body. Goodluck!

New Year's resolution

First day of the year 2010,Yesterday we celebrated New years Eve at home . It's cold outside still minus degree,better to be inside even it's only me and my hubby. Since I have work in the morning so I decided to phone my family in Philippines late in the afternoon. Philippine time is 7 hours advance to the time here. The phone line was busy that takes 1 hour for me to reached them. I am so thankful that we have this new technology these time. It gives me a big opportunity to communicate my love one's abroad. After 1 hour talking in the phone my husband and I just relax for some minutes before get started in the kitchen.

He cooked the food while I set the table. We did the romantic dinner with candle lighted. We've been married for almost 5 years and both happy and satisfied for our relationship. We keep some sweetness in the air,setting in the coach and watching tv while waiting the new year.

We heard amount of noise of the firecrakers in the neigborhood. The time was only 15 mintes before new year but the sky is sparkling with different lights. Green,blue,red it was beautiful moment.

New year and I am thinking my new year resolution. To still positive in everythings here abroad. That this year my IVF treatment give me the answer to become a MOmmy...Hope year 2010 give me and to my husband a new inspiration.